My Heart Will Choose to Say...

LORD, blessed be your name!
On November 9th, Jonathan and I found out that we were expecting again, and we were overjoyed!  What an honor to be chosen as parents to another one of the LORD's children!  We couldn't wait to welcome a 5th precious blessing in July 2011.  However, we have been on an emotional roller coaster over the last 5 weeks.  Things were not progressing well with this pregnancy like they did with the others.  I had a 3rd Ultrasound done on December 9th, and our baby was not growing well and the heartbeat was extremely low, only beating ~85 bpm.  Our Dr. said that things looked very discouraging, and that it was only a matter of time before our precious baby's heart stopped beating.  Even though there was something wrong with our baby, I knew that it was perfect in the LORD's eyes!  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.  Romans 8:28
Monday, December 13th I was 9 weeks pregnant and today through ultrasound we learned that Baby Buhl has gone to be with his/her Creator.  We are deeply saddened by the loss of our child, but joyful knowing that he or she is very much alive in heaven with our LORD.  He or she is at the feet of Jesus waiting for us to meet them there one day!  God is good and He is sovereign.  Jonathan and I don't understand why we are going through this trial but we know that the LORD has much better plans for us than we do.  God might be preparing us and getting us ready so He can use us in some marvelous, miraculous way.  If we can be better used of God, than we are willing to undergo any suffering, any affliction, anything God sends our way.  What an awesome God we serve that we can be used to glorify Him!  Any troubles that we face will always be used for God's glory!  God's grace is sufficient to help carry us through any and all hard times.  I absolutely love the verses in 2Corinthians 12:9-10 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Jonathan and I have been slowly sharing our news with close friends and family over the last week, and have been overwhelmed with all of the love and prayers.  We are so grateful and love each one of you so much! 
My heart WILL choose to say...LORD blessed be your name!